This trap is a disease called addiction, must be from the pit of Hell! It is clearly from any recovered addicts position define that, I’m sure of that’s how I define it anyway.
It’s seems to grab your soul and at first it makes you feel like Heaven on earth, and then the bottom always seems to drop out and then it is pure Hell! You will seem to do anything to get back that Heavenly utopia that you lost, sell your own soul, family and friends.
You then start to believe these lies that you are no good and only way out is death and misery. That happiness is a thing in the past and you are a thief, slut, whore and the list goes on and on.
I see this as part of this disease that keeps the addict in the cycle, and the only way to help kill the pain is of course you got it, more drugs, or so that’s what they believe anyway that’s the farthest from the truth!
Jesus said that the truth shall set you free, and I can share with you that yes that is the way!
You can break this cycle of lies that’s been controlling your life with help you can do all things through Christ!
Learn that He loves you, and you just might be quite surprise, that all those people who really loved you that you some how or some way have be-trade, will be there for you, that’s love they wont run out on you when you are laying down on some dirty old floor in some kind of a condemn crack house while you are over does and dying!
That’s not love nor is it not a friend! My friend that I miss, Angel Face is some were with people who I fear really don’t care, at this point all what I can do is pray that He puts a hedge of Angels around her for protection.
I have never allowed this disease to define her or anyone else for that manner! I have had ill feelings towards others because of the way they have treated her. I know she has allowed this, and that’s the disease that has been working on her making her to believe that she is not worthy!
Only she must come to this conclusion that this disease is a lie and that I am worthy! I know this does weight on her mind for she has come to me at night crying these lies to me. I have hugged her and told her no that’s a lie and you are a champion!
I believe we are all champion’s, we all have a purpose here, find it and do it, over come this disease and that’s what shall define us for what we truly were created for!