I can share with you that running away will not solve your addiction, it is a disease that keeps recycling in your mind. One must face this fact. It is not other people faults but you do need to start in a new direction.
There are steps one can take towards that direction into recovery, I feel the first and major one is to admitted that you have a problem that is controlling and is master of your life, while your under this curse called addiction!
As and addict this is not easily done, but is necessary to solve this lifestyle that you are in. Running away wont solve it, only facing it with conviction along with confidence, not believing that you can’t when in reality you can!
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.