Today I’m sitting here in McDonalds in Whitesboro Texas. I thought it was time again to share some more of my experiences in my life and about addiction. You see addiction comes in all kinds of forms. Most people in society beliefs are as soon they here this word, drugs come into their minds.
Well you can also be addicted to a person, dependence on them whether it be for financial reasons or sexual it still is the same it is a form of dependence which can turn into addiction. Could this also be called love? Or could it grow into love? Well I would like to have your input on this.
The reason why I ask this is, because my relationship I had with my friend Angel Face. I started out knowing a little about her and was hook from the moment we met. I knew she sense this and use it towards her advantage. You see she is an addict, and like all addicts they have to or they believe they have to feed their habit!
She knew I was attracted to her and yes she did exploded that! I did not care it was a trade-off you see. I supplied her with money because I loved her company (which was platonic) I never treated her like a whore or a prostitute. The friendship did grow and even though I did know she was so-called using me she also did show that she too also loved me in many little ways.
She warn me about other girls that were infected and she was also concern about me sleeping under the stars out at the Pike! Even still looking back I do see are relationship was toxic for yes I did try my best to keep her off the streets from selling herself but over all I was still enabling here and this was not good.
I have come to the understanding now that if she does call me I will be happy but I cannot have the same relationship that we did have. And for the simple reason why is that I do love her. She is the very reason why I start Angel Face Foundation. Through this I would if the opportunity ever-present itself provide a Safe Haven for her and other young ladies in similar situations as her.
I have incorporated what I have learned personally from my own past and also others along with intense research into this epidemic. I will need prayers from my readers for me to have the strength to carry on with this mission. Even more so if my friend ever does call for all what I truly want for her is to be sober and stable along with happy in her life.
I do know that it is up to her when she wants this and I do understand why she does what she does to keep that cycle going and why she might even fall into a relapse if she is trying for a new start. She does also know that I do want her sober but I promise her that I would never use force and call the police on her.
It did get to a point that I was so concern for her that I did neglect myself and put myself in a bad spot financially and this is why partly I was sleeping under the stars out at the Pike. She did feel guilty over this and has moved on and I have rebound since then.
I made a promise to her and I felt, even worst she felt that I let her down, will this is another reason for Angel Face Foundation. You see sometimes in life you can’t meet some dead lines, but that don’t mean you give up on your passions in life.