The Pain In The Journey Of An Addict!!!


Today is a beautiful day here in South Florida. I am sitting here and have been putting off this post for awhile. So today I am here at McDonald’s in Jupiter Florida having some coffee and enjoying some old timers sitting next to me talking about politics and just the way we as a nation are heading.

A couple of months ago I lost some one that I really care about to this disease called addiction! She was a beautiful person but yet most people that knew her judge her harshly and wrong just because she was a addict! I have mention her here before and her nick name was Longhair.

It is so sad and a waste that this young lady lost her life to this disease and she really did had a lot to offer to this world. She was a mother first and foremost, like what most people wrongly believe about addicts, she would give here last dollar that she had to feed the hungry and homeless. This I know for a fact for she did this for me when I was sleeping under the stars in Fort Pierce, Florida out at the Pike!

So people keep believing this lie about how addicts are bad people and that they will steal from you when in fact this young lady would give you her last dollar just to feed me, she really cared and I saw what kind of spirit she had along with all the challenges she had with this disease.

You see she originally had a prescription for pain pills from her doctor, this is how she and many others get hooked on these pills. She had a big fight with her sister, she went and told her doctor that she was misusing them, then he just stop writing out prescriptions for her. She had a legitimate use for them because of her accident she was in.

Because she depended on them she was hooked and was not properly weaned off and put on some other kind of pain management that was not as addictive! So she turn to the streets and did what ever she could do to get them, yes she even sold herself and slept in the woods out there at the Pike! I do blame the pharmaceutical companies for a lot of this epidemic that is going on right now. Also these doctors should be not influence so much from these companies with their salesmen ( legal drug pushers)!

I am boiling mad, one time when I was out in Texas I was with my friend. We went to take are friend to the doctors at one off the big medical buildings we would be parked out side and we would see all these legal drug pushers wheel up with their packages of samples along with gift packages to go along with their presentation. My friend and I would holier out, “get a real job”, or sometimes we would say “drug dealer” out loud and of course most people would stare at us but they don’t understand what is going on at all and we here at Angel Face Foundation is all about awareness. I know this is not the best way to reach out to people to educated them, but we were doing this out of frustration!

So on January 28, 2015, my friend lost her battle to this disease! As I write this post I really am having a hard time to show how I truly feel about losing someone that has touch my life in so many good ways in a short time of knowing her. Only people that have been down and out might understand along with other addicts. I know for a fact that there is a God, and from her actions she also knew, I was talking to her husband who is a trucker that really cared for her and had her off the shit, did a lot for her but had to go on the road, like most truckers they are not home much and looking back I can see because of this she did not have the proper support and structure that she needed to stay sober.

She could of won her battle this I know for a fact because many have and still will but they need the support and structure to succeed in their journey of recovery. Last time I did see her she was coming back and I was out at the Pike! I have a lot of guilt because I was staying out there in a room and needed someone to give me a ride. So I always kept in contact with her and she one day called and was heading back to the area to visit with her mother in the next town over so I ask her to come and pick me up and she then was by herself without her husband and she went to a room were some other addicts were and that is all it took! She backslide into it and after that night I never got a chance to say goodbye and this does break my heart. I was so proud of her and was hoping nothing but the best and she did talk the good talk to me about how she was never going back because it robbed her so much out of life and I was really gullible about this.

Because of my call to her she was put into a place that was not good for her recovery. She was sober for about six to seven months I would guess, this was not enough time for her to be around any of this crap! What it must of done was give her the sense, that trigger she could do it just one more time! This seems to happen to many addicts and she right of the bat must of went right back to the dose that her tolerance was a custom to when she was using back then and this is how she got into trouble!

I got a call from a friend out there that tries to minister to some of the girls who told me about Longhair misfortune. She was in a coma with all kind of tubes in her on life support. She lost her battle after about ten days or so from what I heard, I never got a chance to say goodbye to her or even say a prayer over her. I did send my friend to pray over her and he did, after the services which at that time I headed back out to Texas was not able to be there for I got a call from her husband and we talk for awhile and he did tell me that she did accept Christ as her Saviour. I was happy for her, this I was glad that see is now out of her suffering and pain and is resting in peace.

Now back to proper support and structure, These people (addicts) are not able to make proper decision at times even in recovery. This is something any addict has to deal with for life in their journey towards recovery. These steps do get easier as more time goes by but you must have to learn about how to manage stress and other triggers that will lead them towards relapse!

As far as my friend Longhair she never fit the description of the same old stereotype about addicts that you here all the time. And this very belief is what have help keep a lot of these addicts in bondage! I even have some problems with my family members about denial along with finger pointing, just so no one wants to look at their very own addictions! This does not help in any way, and it is running wild in many of families in this war that has been place on many families and friends.

My friend you will always be remember for who you truly are and the spirited young lady that the Lord has blessed me in my life and was able to call her friend!

If you have had anything to share with us or a similar story please commit above on the button that will lead you to post it. Always towards your journey and path towards freedom and peace. Happiness is the key towards purpose and living the life that God intended for all of us.

Gods speed and peace to you.


We are here to share our experience with drug addiction how it affects both the addict and their families along with their friends. Bringing awareness about the war on drugs an how it has failed in many ways. You are welcome to comment even if you might disagree with the post, we here are a free speech zone. We will post it as long it's constructive towards solutions rather then being to harsh and judgmental causing it to be part of the problem. If you want to learn more about Angel Face Foundation you can click here! Thank you :-)

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